Orchid-Alanis Morissette

...it doesn't take long to come crashing back down to earth...less than a week ago i was high-flying and adored...full of love and hope for my fellow travelers...one awkward experience while waiting on line and i allowed self-doubt in for a drink...well the bottle is empty and i've lost my voice from all the talk...

...these last two days while in an uneasy head space i forged ahead in good, powerful and lasting ways...almost in an autopilot fugue...thankful for the auto pilot...where as before i would have given up eaten a hole pizza or cake and spent money on something outlandish to bandage what i deem broken...

...but i rose above...the fog has lifted from my little harbor...i see myself clearly again...a few kind and timely words from friends...time alone...and deep thoughts...but no swerving out of control...i stuck to my diet...i managed to save money and pay some bills...and i wrote no bad checks or bought yet another pair of shoes...

...i am far from figuring it out...but closer than i was last night...you've brought water to me...making sure my bloom rebounds...you know best of what my special care allows...