Life In A Northern Town-Dream Acadamy

...survived Christmas...enjoyed it mostly...there were little earthquakes...good year for hunters and Christmas parties...but it was fun...

...watching the kids open gifts was one of the best parts...such excitement...and the food...so much food...i am stuffed and regretting most of what i ate...not because of heartburn or bad taste...simply that i hope my clothes fit me tomorrow...

...now that the Christmas season is over...and we have New Years Eve/Day looming large...i am reminded that this week-for me at least-has always been a sort of limbo...looking forward/looking back...nostalgia and hope for the future co-exist for one solid week, every year...

...never been one for New Year's resolutions...but i do have plans...hopes...dreams...i plan to go back to Vegas...i plan to start school...i hope i can lose some weight...i hope i get some bills paid off and a better job...i dream that i finish my music project and something good comes from that...yes, all of those plans, hopes and dreams revolve around me and my happiness...i think that after all the goodwill and shopping, with others in mind, meeting the looming-largeness of the New Year always seems to send me into this self-comfort cycle...forgiving myself for wasted time and planning to do something positive with the time i have left...letting go of what i can't get back and reminding myself of the good i have done and that saving money and affording quality takes quantities of time...bandaging the parts broken along with each of my broken dreams and inventing new versions of those broken...

...so tomorrow it's back to work...back to reality...back to life in this snowed-in northern town...looking forward to New Year's Day...looking forward to tax-returns...and the first beautiful life-affirming signs of Spring...