Nice To Meet You, Anyway-Gavin DeGraw

...i am missing my keyboard tonight...i am missing being able to work it out in the words of a new song...to pound out my frustrations in the black and white confines of 88 keys...and since the chord or the keyboard itself gave up the ghost...i must rely on the divine inspiration of my fellow singer/songwriters...i have to cull from their collective works, the one song that is my emotional reflection...

...tonight, confronted with my own humility and being in a sort of limbo...emotionally, financially...sane battles insane and my life is spoil...i walked headlong into a "well-wish" from someone i was content to never endure again...confronted by past mistakes and mis-steps...i stood there on the precipice and took a life-saving step...

...thought i'd crumble?...so did i...do i...but i just found someone special...and that's really something special...if you knew me...

the special person i found is...(groan)...me...
me without a "best friend"...a partner in figurative or literal crime...a lover...a daily phone call...a burden...another bill...a drain...i only have me to contend with...and i am finding that a difficult enough task...

...so before i give in completely to the devil in disguise...i am going to buckle down, commit and give this new relationship a fighting chance...

...i have never fully known myself...these ways i insulated myself, usually through friends/lovers, etc...i kept that still small voice drowned out and my friends were more than happy to turn up the hi-fi...blaming no one else however...they all blossomed and flourished and found "it" and sold it to the highest bidder and are reaping the benefits...but me, a misfit, withered on the vine...i think i am like one of those plants that's better root-bound and does better in a pot all by itself...but look at it's growth and luster and shine...but i just found someone special...nice to meet you, anyway...